If you can’t be with the one you love…..
I was actually thinking, if you can’t be with the one you love… leave! But then I ran across this little gem, and it seemed slightly more plausible. If I could leave tomorrow, I would. Wouldn’t I? I’d like to think I would. I’d like to think, this time, in running away FROM something, I’m running TOWARD something else. SOMETHING GOOD! NO! SOMETHING GREAT! I am restless. My days, unfulfilling. My relationships, lacking. I NEED something that I’m not getting. I’m not even able to articulate it. I have visions of it. In my dreams. In my mind’s eye. But to put it into words?
It starts with, the one I love.
– J. Ela
ela intoxicated! 
Well….I’ve discovered it’s not where I am, but I myself take there (without knowing).
I’m not sure I understand what you mean?
I left the East coast, miserable there. Indeed the sun and fresher air and CA ambience that….reclines made a difference. But I realized eventually it’s not what I was running from or to. Even in this rockin’ place, I could still stress easily….it’s what I brought here: myself.